Somewhere in the present...

Now I feel a lot different, I'm calmer and I think a lot clearer ... All the little things of destiny and "why me??" are gone now ... well, I hope.

It's a different struggle now, a new one that involves surviving and exposing my self.

How well can I make all the scars of the past disappear and not leave a single trace for them to see...

I have to be better, there is no choice but being a better version of Me and keep making it better... I know for some people it seems like they were born with this ability, they even find it enjoyable ... But I am one of the other category of people, I find it challenging, I guess it's because for the past years I was in a long process of figuring out who I am and what I want to do ... It seems so stupid when I say it like that.. so so stupid. 

So... I am still mad at me... shocking ... well not really, I have been used to it in some way....